Some thoughts...

I always feel like I have to have a picture to make a post. Today I decided that I am done feeling that way. If you choose not to read because there is no picture, I am okay with that. :)

I'm getting a little anxious about making the switch from crib to toddler bed. I guess I'm anxious mostly for selfish reasons. Cami hasn't started to even TRY climbing out of her crib, and it's nice to know that if worse comes to worse, there is at least one safe place I can stick her if I need to take a shower or whatever else with peace of mind. In the mornings, I tend to give her a basket of toys and let her play for a while in her crib while I do some "me" things. She has learned to open doors, and so things get tricky and I just know making the switch will take away those few moments of freedom that I have gotten so used to...I have a feeling we may end up switching the door knob of her room around so that we can lock her in if we have to. Just saying that, though, makes me feel bad. "Lock her in." Okay...I'm over it.

Pregnancy is going pretty well. I feel much too big to be just shy of 6 months along. I really do get freaked out when I think I still have 3 months of growth ahead of me. Sleep is starting to get tricky. Just the getting to sleep part, actually. Once I'm asleep, I usually don't wake up. But when I lie there waiting to fall asleep, I can't seem to catch my breath when I'm on my back or right side, and when I'm on my left side, my rib cage feels like it's being stretched or like it's collapsing, or something along those lines. It's not a pain so much as a really irritating sensation. Usually the pregnancy wedge helps, but then I tend to feel crowded and slightly claustrophobic.

Really, at the end of the day, my biggest issue is nerves. I get so irritable and depressed with all these pregnancy hormones. I'm hoping that this time around is similar to how it was with Cami. Within hours of her being born, I felt like my normal self again...at least in my head. Even though there were still a lot of emotions, I felt like I could put a label on all of them, and it was easier to handle the rush of them. Right now, I just feel like there are days when I just have to take a long hot shower and just go to bed...trying not to dwell on the fact that my brain is spinning in circles. The winter dreariness isn't helping...

Speaking of winter...we are having quite the "typical" winter. Which is NOT typical for Kentucky. We are known for our random winters, and yet, this winter has seen the most steady temperatures, it seems, than any other year I've lived here. Is it just me? I mean, we still have our ups and downs, but usually when it snows, it dumps it all overnight, we play in it for a day, tops, and then it melts away. We have had quite a few consecutive days of snow this time around. I'm trying to stay positive, but I am just one of those hum drum people who gets annoyed with all the white stuff getting my socks wet and making me put more clothes on when I want to go outside to get the mail. And aside from those first few hours of the first day after a snow when the white, white snow is still there, untouched and perfect, I hate how it gets all yucky and slushy and gray and ... yucky. There, I said it.

That should empty my brain for a while...tata for now! :)